Have you ever just sat in one spot for minutes at a time and thought about everything and nothing at the same time? And your favorite song with your favorite line in it was playing in the background. A song like "Asleep" by The Smiths. And inside of you... there was this feeling of complete confusion, but also of complete understanding about people and why they are the way that they are. This probably makes no sense unless this has actually happened to you. It's hard to describe, and I know I'm not making any sense right now. And for some reason I am okay with that. I just need to write. I don't understand things sometimes, and so I write. And I listen to music. And I try to understand the things I don't understand. And sometimes it works, but sometimes it doesn't. I can't sleep tonight. I can't sleep any night, actually. Every night brings new thoughts and headaches for me. I wouldn't complain so much on here if people actually read this. But I know that they don't, so I feel comfortable with complaining. It's what is inside of me. And, fuck, it's hard to find any truth lately. At least within myself. I feel like by writing this I might not even be telling the truth. What is the truth? The real feelings inside of me. I don't even know anymore. This world, this generation, has corrupted me. I am so far from
myself. Where is my mind? Ha... The Pixies. They knew the truth. They are the truth. Tonight wasn't good. I wish I could fix myself.
Figure yourself out:
"Fix You" by Coldplay
"Follow The Arrow" by Rosi Golan (Too happy. Listen to this if you don't feel like I do)
"Shape Of Things To Come" by Audioslave
"Evening Kitchen" by Band of Horses*
The Commander Thinks Aloud" by The Long Winters
"The Park" by Feist
"Blowin' In The Wind" by Bob Dylan
"What It Takes" by The Real Tuesday Weld (I hope one person listens to this... and I hope that it applies to them)
"Breathe" by Ryan Star
"Have you Forgotten" by Red House Painters* (Listen to this when you feel like you have nothing left)
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